Yes, I did block awareness. Sorry to both of you,
Roshan and
Vincent. I wasn't even thinking about the hoodie thing (which was very, very disturbing) at the time of writing those two posts. I've been doing a LOT of other stuff and wasn't as...'fully engaged' as I should've been. There was also definitely a subconscious component of, "I just really don't want to be angry at another person right now,
especially the one that's currently having sunshine blown up her ass despite herself, and just for being a pretty woman at that," to answer your "Why?" question. This is all disheartening—the Rittenhouse thing, Jack Murphy, all of it. Part of me definitely wanted to block out how disturbing it was. Everything on this thread, including the topics that Sydney herself addresses, is disturbing.
Obviously there's nothing funny about this, and the fact that she makes 'okay jokes' doesn't overshadow any of it:
Except you go through fifty different videos you'll get fifty different people and at least half of them are going to resemble lobsters being boiled. Just what IS so likeable now about making a video about being oppressed for being thin and exhorting people to rise up against those who would take up too much space in a bus?
I mean I DID distinguish her ‘surface video persona’ from the stuff she actually says and does, and in my first post, said “Perhaps most importantly, I also think she's really hot,” which was half-sarcastic & meant to indicate my self-awareness of the absurdity in my liking her.
But yes, it IS disturbing that I even had the...'psychic space,' if you will, to suddenly declare her likable (and for shit reasons). But honestly, also, I grew up with the Internet and constantly watched YouTubers just like her (and WORSE), so my VISCERAL reaction of "this is a very disturbing case" is sort of...stifled. In many ways, to me, all of this just feels like par for the course, which is disturbing in and of itself.